ninjakittypoo

Well. Happy Birthday to me. I'm still alive, and 21 now.

So anyone up for a drink, hit me up now. *shrug*

I want to be the perfect girl.
I want to be smart, beautiful.
I want to be the girl that every guy wishes they could have.
Not because I want to make other girls jealous, but so I can reject boys who once rejected me,
ignored me, avoided me, and labeled me under the "Unattractive".

Here's the master plan...
I'm currently unemployed, & my schooling begins at dusk, therefore, I have nothing to do
for like 7 hours. I Plan to study & do homework for about 5 hours every other day,
the days in between, I'll be devoting every other time & day to exercising for the perfect body...
I don't want to look unhealthy, but I don't want to look a healthy thick.

For school I'm taking all my pre-requisites & soon classes to become an RN.
(Although I'll be doing school & exercising I would like to do side jobs/gigs face painting for some change)
When I become an RN (2 years) I will work at clinics & hospitals & save up for a top notch medical school.
Who knows how long I'll be there... but I want all of my time devoted to medical school.
Who knows hoe many years it will take, but I want to be a plastic surgeon... a hot plastic surgeon...
Then I will work my ass off, save up like CRAZY, for my children (maybe one day) & my two shops.
I want to own a Tattoo shop & a book shop...
Every patient I will hope (want) them to go to my tattoo shop & get a tattoo... done by me honestly.. haha
Somewhere along those lines I want to eaither dye my hair hot pink or have hot pink streaks in it.
I would very much like to be a "Want"... And although it is not like me... I want to break hearts that once broke mine.

Let me tell you a story, it's a little sad, but I'm not looking for pity...
My 1st crush/love was on the internet... like 6th or 7th grade on Gaiaonline.com
He came onto me first, and finally me being the tom boy I was even on the internet, I gave into him & opened my heart.
I told him everything. Time went on & evetually he wanted a picture
(I didn't know how to take pictures so I looked for one saved on the computer, & there was)
It was the only picture of me I could find. Me (VERY fair skinned) surrounded by my mothers side of the family..(All Black)
It was like an inverted flower... As soon as I sent him the picture, he was gone... for a very long time..
My heart had been broken for the first time, & I had officially developed a deep hatered for myself, I became self concious.
I became shy, scared, and anti-social, I gained a lot of weight and became suicidal, I hated myself, I felt bad for those around me
who had to be in my presence...

(The Point)
Some friends saved me and opened up a new door for me, and I came up with this dream... I guess kind of a revenge scheme kind of?
I've lost 31 lbs. as of August 25, 2011. I was 200 lbs. now down to 169....
And I will keep going... My goal next goal is 159 also hoping to tone up  as well.

(Now to be corny)
This is my Quest!
One I must walk alone! (unfortunetely...)
I will become the heart breaker! muahahahahaaa~!

Hopefully quickly.
For those who support me thank you, if there's anything wrong with this please notify me immediately so I can fix it.

Thank You!

So I've been officially a face painter for only a month & I'm already having to quit...

Reason: I have decided to go to school fulltime... Because I get paid to go...

But also! To become a nurse! I can make $5o,ooo a year... If I do that,THEN I shall go back to painting zeh faces!

My work will soon be posted, so keep on the look out!

To my "Watchers & Friends IRL" someone tell me how to credit other artists & do the picture/ link thing to other peoples profiles.

There is a crazy australian chick totally making me freak out & go crazy & i don't want to not only hear from her again, but not hear

anything from other crazy people like her if they come around.

I'm freaking out, this is my first ugly argument with any deviant about something, & it's the first time anybody has ever brought

something up to this subject. I really am freaking out I ended up taking her words the wrong way & semi- cursing her out cause I

freaked out & thought she called me a theif! I don't even know why I talked to her in the first place... I think it would've been better

to just ignore her, someone help me out here. I'm so flustered & about to go through another panic attack.

My first fight & it's with an australian, my favorite race. Go figure, I thought they were chill about everything, boy was I wrong. X  ~x

Okay maybe I was a little over dramatic...sorry everyone...

i guess i couldnt have had a birthday at all... or havent have been born at all...

it was still my worst birthday out of all the birthdays i've had in my life.

i didnt have my family with me, but at least i had A family with me..

thanks for the b-day wishes facebook friends, to bad i didnt have any from DA, was really

disappointed at that. maybe 21 will make up for it...